Lone Wolf vs Life Choices...

As with all things in life, we all will eventually have to die. The question is whether you lived a happy life or not. I can say without certainty that I "am" living a life that makes me happy. A person with a Lone Wolf mentality can sometimes appear to live a very lonely existence by others. But, to a Lone Wolf, "living alone" doesn't mean that they are "feeling alone" in their life. I enjoy the feeling of living by myself. It used to bother me when others look or talk to me as if I am in a sad state of being for never have been married and/or had children. But, now, I see that I have been able to experience more freedom in my life while living alone without having to answer to anyone. I can hang out with whom I want to hang out with. I can spend the night anywhere that I choose to do so without having to check in with anyone. I can just up and move to another location without having to affect anyone that may have been close to me. And, I can choose to stop talking to anyone that I see as an unnecessary burden to me and my self worth without having to give a reason. This is the mentality of a Lone Wolf.  

This past week has been both exhilarating and fun time of my life since I decided to finally leave my dad and half siblings behind in my rear view mirror and move forward with my life without them. I don't feel like I have to "adjust my lifestyle or way of thinking" in order to cater to their personal opinions of me or my indifference of our dad. I even had my best two days of bowling since I released myself of such burdensome thoughts. I not saying that I won't ever stop loving my dad and my half-sibling. I just want to continue to enjoy living the one life that I have without all the drama and criticisms being given off by my dad and half-siblings. Life is too short for that mess. A person with a Lone Wolf mentality cannot afford to worry about anything that they cannot control. When one of the wolf pack is unable to continue to move with the pack, the pack must continue to move forward for the continued survival of their species. When, I cannot continue to move forward with my life with my dad and half-siblings in it, for my peace of well-being, I must move on without them. This is the way of a person with a Lone Wolf mentality. 

I am sure that I will have to answer for my life choices, eventually. but, for now, I am content with living my life with as little of family drama as possible. So, if letting go of the love ones that seem to think that their opinions or feelings of me matters, in order to enjoy the rest of my life that I may have to live without regrets. Then, this will be my way of the Lone Wolf. 

Lone Wolf vs Internal Sibling Divisions

I am not a fan of having drama in my life. Nor, do I see a need to worry about how others think of the way that I am living my life. I also do not lose any sleep when someone is upset with me about something that has no direct bearing with their life, because of the choices that I make. This is the way of a person with a Lone Wolf mentality.

When someone asks for my opinions about something that they are currently dealing with, I give it to them. Otherwise, I keep my opinion to myself while listening to someone telling me about current dilemma. With this being said, I tend to stay away from those that appear to keep unnecessary drama in their lives. I also choose not to be around people that tend to be upset with me because of family members that I choose not to want to communicate with anymore. To a person with a Lone Wolf mentality, they tend to learn how to survive on their own for so long others opinions really don't mean that much to them. My decisions to do or not do something sometimes tend to rub others the wrong way. I don't feel that I have to explain myself to anyone that don't agree with my decisions. In same turn, I can respect a decision that someone made with a need for an explanation. This is the way of a person with a Lone Wolf mentality.

On Sunday, one of my half-siblings appeared upset with me for not wanting to speak to my dad. This same half-sibling may be upset with me because I told one of my half-siblings that she didn't need to keep checking up on me every week. I am a forty-seven year old adult. I made it through my elementary, junior high, high school, college, and career without their opinions and or lack of support to even want to be in my life during those times. so, I do not see a need for my half-siblings attempt to have any control over my life now. If my half-siblings can't respect my choice to not speak to my dad, or my other half-siblings, I don't need them in my life also. This is the mentality of a person with a Lone Wolf mentality.

I'll always care about my half-siblings. But, like my dad, they think they can show up during my adult phase of my life and attempt to conform me to their way of thinking about my dad. My half-siblings may have experienced life a little different with dad. But, my dad has been so judgemental with my life, if he isn't bad mouthing my mother to me, I don't need to justify not wanting to be around him. And, since I have been living a good productive lifestyle and career up until now with my dad in my life, I am choosing to keep my dad out of the rest of my life. If this decision of mine upsets my half-siblings, then they don't have to be in my life also. This is my way of the Lone Wolf.

Lone Wolf vs Half-siblings

The day that I have to worry about what my half-siblings think of me or my lifestyle is the day that I am living under their roof. Until, I can care less what my siblings think of me or my lifestyle. A person with a Lone Wolf mentality is content with the way they have been living their life is because they do not have to justify their existence or seek approval from anyone. It has nothing to be with me a conceited person or an anarchist. I am just to the point of my life where another person's opinion of me really doesn't matter. My close friends accept this nature about me. My siblings that understand this nature about me and respect it. So, if any of my half-siblings won't accept the way that I am living my life, then those half-siblings don't need to be a part of my life anymore. This is the mentality of a person with a Lone Wolf mentality.

To a person with a Lone Wolf mentality, if a Lone Wolf feels that someone or something is a negative influence or is a negative factor in their live, they choose to let that part of their negative of their life go. A person with a Lone Wolf mentality don't need to give anyone a reason to explain why they made the decision to keep someone out of their life. I am a grown man. I made it this far in life by marching to my own beat of the drum (to coin a phrase). A person with a Lone Wolf mentality will ask for someones opinion when they want someones opinion. Otherwise, a person with a Lone Wolf mentality will always find a way to get through a rough situation or tragedy.

I am 47 years old. I am not a fan of my dad. All my dad has ever done is criticise the way that I have been living my life. I am a single, college educated man that has never been married or divorced. And, I do not have any children (as far I know of). I work in a good career field that can be very challenging and stressful at time. And, I have a pet dog, that I have raised since she was a puppy that house trained and smart. So, overall, I am happy with my life. I can't say the same for most of my siblings. Yet, I am the bad seed of my half-siblings for not caring too much about being around my dad. I am not a fan of my oldest half-brother for a derogatory remark that he once made during one of his drunken stupors in the past. Now that he is an ordained minister, I still can care less about him. An ass hole is still an ass hole no matter if he is an ordained minister. I believe my oldest half-sister is upset with me because I told her that she didn't need to keep checking up on me every week. it was becoming annoying.  

A person with a Lone Wolf mentality enjoys a quiet weekend at home whenever they are able to do so. And, I don't need to explain to a sibling why I don't feel like answering their phone call. Now, my fourth oldest half-brother appears to be upset with me because I either upset my oldest half-sister or won't talk to my dad. He also decided to stress his dismay with me in front of his other bowling buddies when I came by to tell him about dad attempting to call me. I can respect my fourth brother's choice if he doesn't want to talk to me at this time.

With a Lone Wolf mentality, a person don't need to be blood-related to be a sibling of mine. I am blessed to have those that accept me for the person that I am. And, I mutually respect my close friends in return without judgement. Regardless what may happen between me and my half-siblings, life will go on as usual. And, if my half-siblings can't accept they way I am currently living my life, or my choice to not want to communicate with my dad, I don't need to be around them anymore. I was a survivalist before my half-siblings returned to my life; and, I will continue to be a survivalist if my half-siblings choose not to be in my life because of my life choices.  This is my Lone Wolf way.